2014 will be a memory in short order. For our family, 2014 has been wonderful and horrible. Exhilarating and frightening. It has been a year of extremes for me. Maybe that is standard…I don’t know.
Not. One. Kid. Not one single time.
We are now a permanent family of eight kids. It just sounds insane. When I see pictures of us, I think “That is A LOT of kids!!” But in our real life, it doesn’t feel that way. Our life is fairly normal and mundane in many ways. Doctoring visits, therapies, activities, church, friends…you know how it goes.
My bigger kids are getting bigger and more and more compassionate to life around them. Adam and Asher have taught them lessons that Nigel and I never could on our own…Let me list them for you, because I really like lists and lessons.
1. To be kind even with no reciprocation.
This is one of those lessons that I have been trying to teach my children for as long as I have been their mom. Be kind, even if kindness is not returned, be kind anyway. These little boys have taught this lesson in 8 short months.
For example: Today, Asher was all wonky. He was just mad. TC would pick him up and Asher would yell and cry and TC would just hold him. TC wanted Asher to calm down and be glad he was being held, but Asher just was not happy. But TC didn’t give up and he didn’t get angry.
2. To complain less.
Knowledge of Adam and Asher’s past life has really made a remarkable impression on the older children. You will very rarely hear anyone in my house say: “I’m starving” without being dressed down by a sibling. “No one in the house is starving, there are really people starving and YOU are not one of them.” Amen.
3. To be protective of one another, even when it is hard.
The truth is, this road we have chosen has been intensely difficult at times. But this has not kept the entire group of eight children from bonding. The six older kids love their new brothers more than chocolate. More than Christmas. More than new bikes, roller blades and roller skating.
Don’t mess with the teenies.
The older six have been asked many questions about the little boys. Some nice, some not-so-nice. A word to the wise: Do not refer to Adam and Asher as “The Downs boys” or ask “What is wrong with their faces?” Just. Don’t. The big kids will sharply explain how we use people-first language, or just their names, and the boys are not defined by their abilities or disabilities. And as the lecture continues on it gets more and more intense, all culminating with at least one child loudly proclaiming: “AND NOTHING IS WRONG WITH THEIR FACES!!!”
4. To love. With no return.
I don’t mean that my kids have never loved before. But generally, they get something out of it. A nice smile, a kind word, a warm and fuzzy feeling. With Adam, you might get a sweet response that includes a fist bump and a lot of loud, purposeful babbling in reply.
With Asher. Not quite as much. Asher does not try to say TC or Celee or any of the other kids names. In fact, he still says nothing at all. And sometimes, tender-hearted Mia will ask in a quivering voice, “Mom, will he ever say anything?” and then I have to tell her the truth, I really don’t know. And my sweet Mia will gather Asher up and squeeze him and say “That’s okay, Asher, you don’t have to talk, I can talk for you.”
And then I cry. Again. Not from sadness. But from thankfulness.
Thankfulness for my eight children. Thankful for my kind, laid-back, up-for-anything husband that kept our six big kids for two months while I was in Ukraine to get one boy, and came back with two.
Just so thankful.
And that is how I will end 2014. With an overwhelming sense of gratitude. Because while this year has brought anguish and despair, it has also brought redemption and grace. Lives in our household have been altered. It has not been simple or easy. Change never is. But we are witnessing loneliness transformed. And beauty slowly being restored.
Goodbye 2014. We have laughed. A lot. We have cried. A lot. We have become better. I hope. We have learned many lessons, and have many more to learn.
Thank you for joining us on a portion of this journey.
Leaving you with a few pictures from this year…
Happy 2015, friends. Many blessings.
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